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Free From Hurt Part 2



Fourth
I felt I needed to question God to find out why I had been the victim of so many hurts.  It's suitable to question God why He allowed negative things that hurt us both physically and mentally to happen.  

"I have called upon You, for You will hear me, O God; Incline Your ear to me, and hear my speech."  Psalm 17:6 (NKJV)
For what man knows the things of a man except the spirit of the man which is in him?  Even so no one knows the things of God except the Spirit of God.  I Corinthians 2:11 (NKJV)       
At one time you may have been upset or angry with God because you felt as though He left you when you needed Him most.  Some of you may need to ask WHY were you sexual molested at a young age, tortured and abused when you were a child by a parent or guardian, raped by a stranger or even someone that you trusted.  You may have an incurable sexually transmitted disease after being sexually assaulted.  Why you were treated as an outcast and picked on during school years. Why you were abandoned by your parent(s), slated the black sheep in your family, abused by your spouse or mate.  Why you are always being shunned or ignored by people you try to befriend.

The list continues on and on...  Whatever your question, God will unveil to you how He uses negative circumstances for a positive outcome.   

"But as for you, you meant evil against me; but God meant it for good, in order to bring it about as it is this day, to save many people alive."   Genesis 50:20 (NKJV)

I searched myself trying to reason why so many things had happened to me but when I asked God, in time He gave some insight.  

First, I know that God loves me and He doesn't get pleasure in seeing me hurt.

"Casting all your cares on Him, for He cares for you.   
I Peter 5:7 (NKJV)

I began to see that in spite of the negative things that occurred in my life, I could testify about them to others and help them to overcome.  When I begin to share the misfortunes in my life with people that are going through similar hurts, they can see that God has brought me out and delivered me from the hurts.  It's then they realize that He can and will do the same for them.  So my stumbling blocks have become Stepping Stones!  Instead of constantly falling over them and dwelling on negative thoughts, I use them to take me higher and walk closer with God.

Fifth
I had to break down the wall of protection that was built up around me to keep others out so that I would not be hurt again.  This was the MOST DIFFICULT task that I endured and even now after being hurt again by offenses, I must fight to keep that wall down.  (I must add that being hurt and being free from hurt are two different things).  This wall was truly a comfort zone and safe guard for me.  If I forgave someone, I felt that it was ethical not to let them get close to me again, therefore preventing any chance of them hurting me again.  If they would try to come to me, even to talk of the pain that I might had caused them I would purposely turn away or ignore them.  God revealed to me that this is a part of justified unforgiveness.  

I now realize that because I was a victim, I could very easily become a victimizer  (hurting those who really meant no harm to me). To be able to tell a person who has hurt you, cut you down and ripped your heart out, that you love and forgive him/her is hard. But to truly and genuinely mean it, is even harder.  I needed the help of God. I had to trust God and His leading to allow complete healing to take place.

If someone says, I love God, and hates his brother, he is a liar; for he does not love his brother whom he has seen, how can he love God whom he has not seen?  I John 4:20 (NKJV)

But I say to you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who spitefully use you and persecute you.  Matthew 5:44 (NKJV)

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your request be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.  Philippians 4:6 & 7 (NKJV)

Again with my husband's love and support we prayed and fasted about tearing down the wall of rejection that was built by me allowing
justified unforgiveness to harbor in my heart.  

More to come ...

I thank God for using me in all that I do and the inspiration to continue to do so.  To satan I laugh for he is definitely defeated!   
Until God moves me again,
Shirleen

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